So, i had to make the decision to either spend new year's in a place that is not a very safe environment for me but be with people, or go to what i call "my real home" alone..... I obviously chose the latter. However, now eventhough i took my antidepressant and have been taking them regularly, i feel SOOO lonely, and depressed. I just don't know what to do, or even how to make myself "un"lonely. I guess its a combination of "im by myself here and everyone else is out and about having fun", being on academic probation (found that out the week before christmas), having just found out today that my very best friend in the world is not going to be attending school wth me this coming semester, missing him a LOT, having hormonal feminine problems, and having to change my major from something that is my passion.... yeh... I needs hugs.