And since relationships are apparently off limits to me, I want to actually experiment for once in my life and really figure out my sexuality. But why is it that I'm the only girl that a sober guy wouldn't mess around with? That's what I don't understand. Why is it that online everyone will say I'm SOOOO attractive and I'll even get compliments in real life…but they have to be drunk to want anything to do with me. Why lie to me? Why not just keep telling me that I'm ugly like they used to or here's a thought…not say anything at all?