I hate myself and my life sooo much.. the dayz are becoming more
unbareable . Sometimes I fantasize about things.. I am pretty obsessive.
I push ppl to their limits, to see how far they will go. .. but w her, I leave
her alone. Never will I be normal, cuz I have no clue if it even exists, but
content to an extent would be nice. I spent last yr away from her, and I
wuz happy. I wuz "me" again, however, therewuz a relapse and hospitalized,
bc I went off meds.. but it wuz me. This is a shell.. I am crazy, I know.