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Originally Posted by Teddy:)
I find i struggle to not hide during my sessions with my T. My form of hiding is behind a cushion. I am not entirely sure why I do it, but I think it is a way of stopping any uncomfortable feelings from a merging, I find I also sometimes unknowingly stroke my index finger back and forwards whilst I am hiding, I feel it relaxes me.
It really bugs me that I have to keep hiding though, my T is very nice and doesnt worry, sometimes she will ask me what is making me hide, but i usually have a hard time explaining it, and then i end up getting embarrassed. I have tried to resist from grabbing the cushion but I end up not concentrating and feel very exposed without it
Does anyone else do this? Have you ever found yourself hiding during your therapy session? If so what's your reason behind hiding?
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Hi darling, I too hide during my sessions and while kind, T has pointed it out mainly because she can't read my ever telling face when I do it. She says I do it as a defense mechanism or whenever the subject gets tough or personal; like once when I first walked in, I sat down and put the pillow up in my lap and she said "I see you've got a wall up today..." I think that the barrier is more of a sense of security (like a blanket or a thumb) and don't feel it is a problem so much. If it bothers you not to reach for the pillow, you're likely more productive using the barrier until you unconsciously find yourself not needing it as much.