I met someone many years ago and over time I fell in love. When I was with him I felt safe and grounded. The cross talk in my head subsided. Keep in mind I thought everyone had cross talk in their head back then. I was happy and felt safe. We weren't a couple and he didn't know I loved him. We were friends. I never felt like that unless I was thinking about him or talking with him. Now he and I don't stay in touch. I haven't felt like that since. I am having trouble understanding if I was a part or....... I don't know. Who was I in that time spent with him when I felt loved and safe. At session I said I must have been a part during my time spent with him. but that don't ring true. So if not a part who was I? And will I ever feel like that again? These thoughts have been on my mind. I just didn't know who else to talk to about them. I don't need an answer, I just wanted to tell someone.