Well, I usually don't go to social events…mainly because the practice rooms are empty and at this point I wouldn't be able to eat at any of them because of my diet and then I would just be standing around doing nothing. And, empty practice rooms are too tempting…

How is it any more than one more chance though? This will be the last time I'll be at a university as a student rather than a professor (hopefully). I mean, as it is, most of the students would be off limits anyway. Especially if I get to teach my own class(es). Besides, undergrads don't want anything to do with grad students. And almost all the grad students are married. So, really it'll be 3 more years of crushes that I can't do anything about.

I haven't mentioned the singles night again because it's been the holidays and I'm not 100% sure I'll be totally behind the idea. My friends in that group (even though they are really new and haven't known me for too long) do know I have problems, especially with touch and people being in my personal space. And that I have an easier time in smaller to mid-sized groups than large groups. It's just difficult to find an activity to do that wouldn't make me feel more anxious than I already would. I mean, I feel anxious just thinking about it…

I also sort of have a feeling that there may have been an occasional guy who did like me but wouldn't say anything and I'm not sure why. Is it normal for a guy to be constantly telling his mom about me and being sad that I was graduating? And to constantly be teasing me when he was around me. It wasn't in a mean way but it annoyed me to the point that one time I would have smacked him in the face if I didn't have a phobia of touching other people. My mom was the one who overheard his mom talking about me and I asked my mom if that meant that he liked me and she didn't reply. I guess she thought I was joking? He's probably graduating this year anyway...