On one hand, I can attend the January 15th appointment and give him the letter that tells him I think psychotherapy will help me.
But on the other hand, I can attend the appointment but leave out giving him the letter to see how much more longer I can manage.

Back to the one hand though, if he refers me and I get a T. Won't the T get tired of me not opening up and tell whoever is in charge of it that after a few months of having it, it isn't worth the taxpayers money since it's on the NHS? Or will they be patient and let me go at my own slow pace which is probably long term and not short term because I take forever to trust someone completely. Why is it so hard to do the right thing? I don't know what's right anymore for me. So confused. But so nervous and worried what will happen if I get T and they get sick of me. And what do I do if the mental health nurse specialist thinks that psychotherapy wouldn't help me? What could I do then.