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Old Jan 01, 2014, 10:33 AM
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I had a bad relationship with my first T. I wasn't attached (and it was great) but I wasn't going anywhere, I just hated her and didn't listen to a word cause she looked so annoyed and judgemental all the time.
I wish the relationship with my current T wasn't important. But unfortunately it is. Attachment brought me fear of abandonment. I dread her saying I'm ready to terminate (but she doesn't know what happened during the holidays, lol).
But I'm also grateful for this because it means she will let me go once I'm better - when I am ready, hopefully.
Lately I've been brainwashing myself with the thought that I'm just work to T and that she is likely not to even remember my name outside that room. I was hoping it would help to be less attached but I'm not sure it's the right way.
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