Hi Peaches. I am so sorry you are in so much pain and anguish. I can relate to every single word you have written. It is such a difficult place to be, isn't it. I too have reached out to my T (for whom I have exactly the same feelings and experiences as you describe)and I too have been reprimanded by her for invading her boundaries (for texting). She will not reply between sessions now Except to confirm the time of our next apt. I feel so abandoned and pathetic.i only text when I am really struggling. These holidays have also made me realize I am her work and will never be anything more which really hurts but it is a good realization. I hate myself for being so needy and desperate for her approval. I don't know what to add except I feel your pain through your post.

I think the replies you have received from other posters have been brilliant - they have certainly given me a lot to think about. Thank you so very much for having the courage to start this thread and to share your letter. It can't have been easy and I really respect that. Thank you.