I relate so much to everything you've said, you're definitely not alone in your emotions!! I struggle with the same things everyday, and I too haven't been supported by people when I've told them.
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I am not this hair, I am not this skin. I am the soul that lives within.
Prozac 40mg, Neurontin 400 mg TID, Remeron 45mg
depression, anxiety, borderline, social phobia, ed nos, self injury.