A side from my girlfiend of 5 years stealing from me and my best friend betraying me I feel as if I have lost a big part of me. I once use to be so confident in my self and would set alot of goals for my self and work achieve them no matter what it took. Pretty much I knew what I wanted and there was never a time in my life where I didnt know what my next move was gonna be. I use to want to learn as much as I could in my job. I have been a house painter for almost 5 years, and my other job learning to become a property manager. I know your all saying painting doesnt take much skill and everyone can do it. The stuff you see people doing on tv with tape and all that....I dont do that, its all free hand. But anyway after all that has happend to me I dont seem to care as much about it anymore. I feel that im stuck in first gear all the time and cant get out. I feel that when people are talking to me they wont care what I have to say, or what im talking about is wrong. Like no one would notice if I feel off the face of the earth. I think about my life now and im like ya I have nothing good going for me. I have been working with my boss for almost a year now. I paint with him and hes the one teaching me about property management. I spend 60+hrs a week with him so I guess you could say that we know each other pretty good and have become workers....as in I dont look at him as my boss. Not that I dont have respect for him at all, well its hard to explain. But lately when im at work...he knows what im capable of and I feel that he babys me all the time. Always reminding me of things that I know how to do and he knows that I know how to do them as well. It makes me feel stupid. Like he has no confidence in me and inreturn I have none in my self. Its just a mess everywhere!