Funny you should post this thread right now. Though not funny in a haha lmao way...

I just read an article a few hours ago about how many people don't follow through with improving themselves because our brains are stubborn a.s.s.holes who don't like change. Especially if there's hard work involved and sometimes we even finds solace in our efftupness, its what we know, what we're accustomed to, and changing that is scary, albeit subconciously.

Take diet and exercise for example, some people manage to lose say x amount of weight in 3 months. Then they go to 1 buffet and a skip a week at the gym, and a lot of that weight returns in no time at all.

So in this scenario a lot of us say "fk it I'll just stay fat, healthy is too much effort"

Anyway, my rambling aside, I do think many of us do this at some point, but we either have to get motivated despite the setbacks and kick the challenge's a.s.s or become bitter and give up before even giving it a real shot. And the force behind which option we choose is our perception.

Meditation isn't easy for anybody, and I know personally the frustration of which you speak. That's why its recommended to start out with 5 min exercises and build up from there.
I also know that all that hard work, book throwing frustration, and screaming at the rebellious brain pays off eventually. Big time.