Hi Folks, I finally had my first ever meeting with a psychiatrist on Monday and I feel it went really well.

He spoke to me at length for almost an hour then asked DH to join in and asked him if he ever witnessed my manic episodes and to describe them.

He has put me on Tegretol to see if that will help stablise my moods ( I am making no assumptions but he mentioned hypo mania so I guess he is thinking BP II ), he also confirmed Musical Halluncinosis and finally OCD but not the usual ritual type rather one where a person ruminates and catastrosizes.

I looked this up and of course found out about Pure O

I had never heard of it so of course never considered it but from what I have read so far this def sounds like me.

Just wondering if there are others here with pure O and what their experiences are.

I suffer terribly with visualising worse case senarios and ruminating on things I have said to someone in the past ( like years ago ).

Mostly these thoughts lead to anxiety. ( probably why I was diagnosed with GAD ) .... the pure O makes so much more sense to me because I was never anxious about a lot of stuff just certain thoughts.

I find myself repeating lines of songs or nursery rhymes over and over again in my head for no apparant reason. I also do this thing where I run my finger under my eye ( across the lower eyelashes) and collect the 'sleep' continuously, the feel of it sliding against my eye ball is very calming for me.

I also Skin pick ( both on myself and by proxy on my DH's back ) . On myself I use scissors and a finger nail to squeeze white spots on my arms and get a sense of euphoria when white stuff pops out, on my DH I squeeze spots on his back which give me the same high.

I finally feel like I am getting some answers to whats going on with me.