I'm a heterosexual twenty-three-year-old guy who's never been on a date, had a girlfriend, kissed or had sex. (I'm in my last year in college.)
During the summer of 2013 I grew interested in dating and such. I've worked on my personal development a lot: I become physically fit, learned to dress better, got a nice haircut, and honed my social skills. I assumed my new self would be attractive to women.
But it didn't seem to matter. Sure, my peers complimented me for becoming a better version of myself, but I still had 0 success in romance. I asked out hundreds of girls, both online and offline, and they all rejected me.
I was dumbfounded as to why this was the case, so I started doing research into attractiveness. I discovered that there are general preferences for what's considered physically attractive. So I had a photo of me rated by almost 100 women. All of them agreed that, while I'm average, “OK” looking, none would date me or find me attractive whatsoever. Again, I was literally dumbfounded, as these women were mostly average looking.
So I asked a buddy of mine to take my photo to some of his lady friends and have them take a look at it. They all seemed very repulsed by how I looked, even though they couldn't explain why, as they said my face looked ok. They specifically said that I look like a rapist; that I have a serial killer face; that they would never approach me; that if I were to approach them in a bar they would feel uncomfortable; and that I'm not their type. (I got this “not my type” thing a lot in real life.)
I have come to the conclusion that there must be something very wrong with my face. I suspect that I suffer from some mental illness and this shows on my face.
Would you agree with this assumption? How can I figure out what's the cause of my lackluster romantic life?
PS: I live in a 3rd world country with appalling health care. Seeing a therapist now isn't an option, that's why I'm here.
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