It has been a bit over a year since my best friend of 41 years died suddenly from a heart attack. We were together for all of the major milestones of each others lives, I defined myself by her. We had our marriages together, we had our children together...we were one of the same. We worked at the same place always exchanging our feelings etc. We took trips together, we always understood each other. I can't move past this...I can't mention her name at work or at home or anywhere. I will cry if I even think of her, no matter where I am. I am grieving so much. I don't want her to be gone. I can't make myself remember our times together with fondness, just sadness that we can not have any more time to be friends. Will this grief ever end? I don't want to not talk about her, but I cannot. I can't visit her grave, I feel she is not there, that she is not anywhere. I am trying to move on, is this normal?