I understand, I think. I was sexually abused as a child, I think. I can remember things that no child should have knowledge of. I did things as a small child that little kids don't do. I remember playing with baby dolls in so WRONG kind of ways. I told my T about this just recently. I have doubts about what happened, I don't know who did what, but I think something happened, and even though all the signs are there I still question did it happen. but deep down inside I know it did, It had to have. The T agrees I have all the sighs of someone who has been threw child sexual abuse except the hard proof of who and how.

So not to rob your thread, I do know how you feel. Unfortunately I don't know what to do about it. I have some of the same concerns you do.

If u need to talk to someone just let me know. I don't know if I can help but I do know I can understand and listen.