Well, ok…

I was just going to say that I give waiting for a serious relationship to do anything physical. I'm not necessarily referring to losing my virginity here, but I suppose it could happen. It's just that I'm so uncomfortable with these things that I can't mess around with just anybody (at least when it comes to guys). And since no one wants to date me, I would be ok with a friend, but unfortunately none of my male friends are single. Also, I would be pretty sure I'd be rejected even as a friend with benefits anyway.

And it just bothers me when everyone says that girls have so easy…that if you want sex, you can get it if you're female. Or say something like isn't it funny how many guys want to sleep with me. No, I'm afraid it's not.

Hell, even in the closest thing I had to a relationship (I would say it was more of a PG friends with benefits) even he refused to do anything with me.

I don't know what's so physically disgusting about me…even before I had scars I was laughed at for what I looked like. I mean, at least my face and hair are relatively pretty and I'm about average size. But I'd have to get someone drunk first before they'd be remotely interested.

I guess I need to make more male friends…which is difficult for me. We get along just fine, but they don't want me hanging out with them (not single guys anyway) because I'm not someone they want to sleep with, so there's no reason to be friends with me. And so it's finally explained why my only male friends are married.