I've never really been looking for someone (at least not for several years), I just unfortunately I meet people and end up with a crush on them. I feel like I've focused on myself so much in my life that I don't know how to focus on someone else. But I'm not someone who can ever have a relationship since I need bonding and emotional intimacy too much and bond too quickly.

It's good to know that it's really true that I'll be rejected because of scars. If I ever sex in my life with a guy I'll make sure they've been drinking and it's dark.

Maybe life is trying to tell me that I need to marry my job and that I won't have the kind of connection, intimacy, and physical closeness with an actual person? It's not like I ever have before.

Is it possible to just get a fwb and get the physical curiosity taken care of? So I can move on with my life? Or will it be too difficult for someone who bonds too easily to not become too emotionally close to someone like that?