I hope you feel better soon. I'm not a doctor so I can say what may be causing your symptoms
I hope you talk to you doctor so together you can find a solution. In the city I live in they have crisis
Stabilization. Its a intense outpatient therapy program that last 10-15 days. It a way to prevent hospitalization. Its run by the state and city's Community Service Board. They come to your
home for intake and take you to therapy and to see the doctor. It help my fiance when he was in
a crisis. Feel better.