I have self harmed since I was a teen starting with hitting myself and pulling my hair. I started to self poisoning and self starvation around 23 at 29 I started scratching on top of the self poisoning and starvation.
Now I cut pretty deep to the point recently I got a little worried about how deep the cuts I do are at time people know I cut but have started to voice concern at the severity. I normally cut my arms I know I should cut my legs to hide it but I am normally upset enough I don't really think clearly. I use sharp scissors even thought about razors but I am afraid if I go that route I WILL kill myself on purpose so I haven't bought any. When I poisoned myself recently I must of blacked out for what I believe was around 15 hours never done that before normally I am just really sick for a few days. I feel like I have lost control