one school of thought is that promiscuity is a person's right... another school of thought is that it's a self-destructive behaviour. what do you think?
i've been in both situations... where one-night stands were just something fun to do. but i've been in other situations where it almost seemed like an obsession-- i had to do it, i had to find new partners, i got bored with steady partners quickly, it was the "chase" that was more fun than the "catch" but by the time you're done with the chase, you take the catch because it's your right after working so hard for it. you'd probably be floored to hear numbers (especially if you saw me-- i'm no looker, that's for sure). someone once told me i fit the criteria for a sex addiction, but i don't know if i buy it. i'm not addicted to sex... i think i'm addicted to putting myself into these potentially unsafe situations.
sometimes it's protected and sometimes it isn't... at the time that's not usually on my mind (despite my safe-sex lectures in college). it's like i'm a totally different person sometimes, or i'm the same person with weird notions of what's right and wrong, or i think i'm invincible (when i'm manic) or hoping to die (when i'm depressed).
does this make any sense? does anyone know what i'm talking about?
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