Hi quess and welcome to PC. Do you have a therapist? There are so many levels of dissociation and it would take a therapist to figure out what's going on with you. It does sound like something is going on and I'm sorry you are struggling.

I think it's awesome that you are wanting to get help while you are young. It will make a big difference for you later on.

Best wishes as you work through stuff and glad you are here.