One thing that I have learned from all this is that "the higher you climb, the farther you have to fall". The longer you go without SI, the farther you "fall" when you relapse in terms of regret, guilt, etc. So, not cutting doesn't necessarily make the urges go away, but the longer you go without it, the more scared you will be to do it again because of the emotional consequences after.

Well, this is true for me anyways. Just a personal takeaway that I felt like sharing.

- AJ