Feeling like hell today. Feeling like my depression is getting worse. But wondering if maybe anxiety of starting work soon (and failing at it) isn't contributing. Feeling very angry that my life sucks right now and I feel helpless to do anything about it. I feel like I'm just going through the motions of barely existing. So hard to get out of bed in the morning, and look forward to going to bed every night. Looking forward to the day when I look back at this time and think, "How could I have felt that way?". I must pat myself on the back for making it through this ***** that is life lately.