Here's an update: I did end up sending my friend another text, just letting him know that I was having a hard time and that I hoped to hear from him. He did respond and asked me to tell him what was going on. I let him know that I would tell him the next time I say him, I felt it was too much for texts and it's something that I really want to let him know in person. He really wanted me to tell him and be there for me though. This something that I know by now but just knowing doesn't change the feelings that I have sometimes and it still doesn't stop me from wondering why he is willing to be so good to me. Well, I am looking forward to telling him now, I do want him to be aware and I do really need someone to be there for me and willing to understand right now. I don't really have anyone else in my life right now that I can trust on that level so I'm very grateful that he is there for me.