Thank you. Sometimes I feel that the only good thing I've ever done in life is my daughter. Then I do things (too down/lazy to play with her) and feel like the worst parent in the world but still can't work myself up to playing with her.

I think that another part of my depression is this: I'm the oldest of three boys. A lot of people joke that the oldest siblings get all the "good" genetics and the youngest gets the "leftovers". It seems to be the opposite in my case. I'm the one with the mental issues, bad eyesight, back problems, heart condition, etc. I try to tell myself that things could be worse, but most of the time it doesn't help and it makes me so mad that I can't just "get over it".