I'm bipolar as well & taking seroquel. I won't lecture, as I know you're aware of the potential dangers of mixing alcohol & meds, but that might be responsible for some of what you're feeling right now. Again...lecturing sucks, but I find attending AA helps me stay sober. Whatever you decide to do, I hope you can stay sober another day...& the day after...& after...etc. I hope you feel better soon.