I did, when I was Christian. What we are "supposed" to be doing is unknowable. To gain a greater level of intelligence and understanding you must question all things. I question, how do we know what we are "supposed" to be doing? How would anyone know the answer to this? By reading a book that was written by other men? How do we know that whom we're told that wrote these books are who we think they are? As far as I'm concerned, it is unknowable. I wasn't there personally as someone wrote it, and, well this goes deeper but how can I prove that any other person is even real, even if I was there "witnessing" the event? Can we even trust our memories? Our minds naturally will judge and generalize things in order for us to help ourselves remember certain things. Unfortunately, you can't prove anything in this life. Man creates ideas, that define things as certain other things, to create math, to create an absolute out of something that isn't. Everything is only as it is said it is by one if another continues to define it as such...

I realize that probably won't make much sense to you. That's ok. I don't expect anyone to understand what I'm saying, after all, it is only what is in my head. I can only hope that someone will get the message and more simply put, free yourself from the bindings of your mind. Don't continue to accept everything you're told as a truth, as we did when we were children. I encourage anyone reading this to question what I'm saying.