wish i could type better today but i only have the use of one hand....i have grown up with christianity, believed in J since a young child, but i think i was depressed for as long as i can remember.
So yes I question why i struggle or why any christian struggles once they are a believer. I'll bet even in the bible some writers struggled with depression at times, but i feel that we should be able to get out of prolonged periods of hopelessness. I don't think gratefulness is totally the answer either, because it just makes me realize how many people are suffering and in pain and hungry, and for me to be grateful while they have no food, makes me ungrateful for the condition of the world, if you know what i mean. i think that we are under attack, and depression is one of the tools used to make us want to lose faith and hope. Only trust Him. p.s. you are not a jerk, and we are allowed to question things... help my unbelief someone said in the bible to Jesus