I constantly use that initial love feeling to compare to my reality later in a relationship, which makes me feel empty and alone, because nothing will ever feel that way again. Even though things are fine, it constantly makes me feel like things are not good.
These statements are so true...and so me also.
I have been sitting here and reflecting on this topic....As that is sometime I do well....rumination.
But, I am one of the best on this topic, as I am sure the rest of you are too... No offense meant to anyone, Just goes with the territory
I was told this by a therapist many years ago...he showed me how to spin it....Taught me how to try to spin everything....because my take on things was flawed....always take a moment...think...adjust...rethink......smile inside (never show them)... I don't know if I am saying this right...
I do doubt myself, but am learning through my friends here, that I do have much to offer and I really am not that bad person I always thought I was.
Some days, I even feel like I can conquer this and walk out on the other side a better and happier person...maybe whole again...As the broken and fractured pieces are melded through new love and happy experiences in my future and leave the past in the past. I have even gone as far with T to get trunk, fill it...lock it up and chain it...bury it....walk away and feel cleansed. its a hard exercise and does work for the most part...for most things.
I will be trying to make a friend again this year...maybe an old friend...maybe a new friend... maybe more than one???
sorry I rant on.... thank you for at least reading and maybe chucklin' too