Keep in there and keep fighting.....we always question ourselves and seem to be more critical of ourselves than others. Always questioning why they care, how long will they care...what will I do wrong.... As we start to understand how the brain jumps.... we can learn to make it jump to the right conclusions-not the ones that blame us...it really will get better....But to have someone there for you is the best feeling...always hold onto that and let the fear go....hope you have a nice relaxing evening and a great and understanding chat with your friend....take care...thanks for reading