Hey guys, I feel like I should never have been born. My whole life is defined as me being an outsider to everything and everyone. Other people are so happy, smart and successful - they just seem to "get" life - one way or another I always screw up at everything I do. I'm sure my parents were never supposed to have a child, because no matter how hard they tried they couldn't have me, until they went for one of those IVF things. Their marriage is a disaster and is basically non-existent. They are only staying together for my sake. My dad was an alcoholic and we never had much money. I feel like I'm the reason for all this, and I'm sure they'd be much happier divorced, and they would have got divorced if it weren't for me being here. Other people too, wish I wasn't alive, I can see it in their eyes. My whole life I was just an extra guy in everything I did, like I didn't belong and didn't deserve a place. I don't have any dreams or aspirations at all. I screwed up big-time about two years ago when I thought I would tell this one girl that I had feelings for her, I felt like such a fool and she didn't respond well either. That was also the first and last attempt at "normality" that I ever made. I just crawled back into the dark hole of my existence. I genuinely have no use in this world, and I really mean that - the evidence does not lie. Why is it wrong for me to want to die? I just don't see the point of someone useless like me - why must I stay alive? I can't make anyone happy, I can't do something constructive with my life, I can't do good unto others, I have no friends, I have no life - really, what is the point. I don't have emotions either. Why can't I just die?