I'm someone who worries probably more than the average person, and I'm skilled at worst case scenario-ing. I've been with my boyfriend for about a year and a half. Throughout the whole relationship it has always felt different in the good way, feeling like this is really it. We've never had any problems and we go great together. He is the most compassionate, understanding, and wonderful man I could ever imagine meeting. However, shortly after we said I love you around month 4 of the relationship, I have been having bouts of anxiety. About 3/4 of the time I am in that blissful, happy content place that one should be when they are in a good relationship. The other times though, it's almost as if I am looking for something to be wrong. I have had trust issues that are completely unwarranted, asked numerous questions about his past, and all the while he has been an open book and been as understanding and helpful and supportive as someone could be. I'm scared that I'm just looking for something wrong with him, since I've never had a relationship where someone is so good to me.
I don't think it's my gut telling me something is wrong, I think it's from a place of paranoia due to what has happened in my past relationships.
These bouts of anxiety have been far and few between as of late, but they are still not completely gone. I am looking for ways to overcome these feelings of fear and anxiety (for no reason!) once and for all!
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