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Originally Posted by lynn808
Hoping that this back pain will go away...been waiting months to see spine doctor and hoping for surgery. So, I went to appt...got there and they could not find the referral so they cancelled my apt and reschedule for January 9th and 5 minutes later received fax from primary with referral attached. too bad they said cant fit me in...have to wait now. am frustrated no pain meds left, doctor was to take care of it today but didn't so now have to wait til Monday to get meds. Got to wait and see if they can fit me in between now and January 9th if someone else cancels....Geesh, don't know if I can do this.... everything is closing in on me and I cant step forward. I cant think straight, have not even started decorating or shopping yet..have all these boxes sitting around...Feeling overwhelmed and undersupported...Am I okay??? Feel like I am melting down...yikes
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Hi Lynn
Isn't back pain a living breathing hell! I struggle daily with that as well. I also struggled with the loop of pain meds and that almost killed me.
My x called my pain doctor and told a bunch of lies about me and they dismissed me. It is a company policy if an immediate family member show concern they stop treatment . He did this to hurt me during our divorce.
I took those little red pills on schedule every single day without a second thought. I did this for 7 years. I had absolutely no idea what those little devils can do to you. I never took more, never failed drug test, but I took them every day until August 13. I will never forget that day. That was the day that I learned how to suffer. I went cold turkey off 180mg(60mg3x day) OxyContin.
I was in terrible withdrawals for 20 days, and I still have problems today with bone pain in my legs. I have never felt pain like that in my entire life and my pain scale changed. What I used to think was an 8 is maybe 4 at the most.
The scary part is the brain. I was stupid for. 3 months. Really stupid.
Ugh it is awful to remember. Watch out for the devil pills!
I am not saying to not take your meds, just telling you what happened to me. I will have problems for up to two years from that stuff.
Be strong. I hope it all works out for you with your back. If you ever need an ear I am here