So I live with my mom (who is bipolar), and we have hiccups at times but do okay with the living arrangement. I pay rent and buy all the groceries, she covers the rest.
The problem stems from the holidays. My grandmother is a narcissist and when she last visited, she ended up attacking me in the car (hitting me and pulling my hair), and my biggest issue with the assault is it took place right in front of my then 3-year-old.
I was done. I had no contact with the woman, and I vowed to never speak to her again. The holidays came and it was announced she would be coming to stay with us.
I was LIVID. I was so angry that no one cared about the assault over the summer (I will say I was proud for not hitting back, I just can't hit a 60+ year old lady), and that I was being told to get over it.
I was told she'd only be staying for a couple days. Today is day 8. My mom said she was taking Nancy to my aunt's house today and I was so happy. Ive endured comments about my weight, hair, parenting, and her constant nagging. She picks at everything my son does ans it drives me insane.
For the most part over the last week, things have been okay. I've managed to limit my contact as much as possible but yesterday she crossed the line. She told me I ate enough food for two people and then when I was talking to my mom she butted in and I called her out it.
I've basically had enough of the bulls****. Today was the day she was supposed to disappear and my mom announced when I got home from running errands that she's staying one more day.
I lost it. Why are my feelings not considered? I'm so f***ing tired of walking on eggshells and being constantly ragged on. I WANT HER GONE. I asked my mom why she needed to stay, and was basically told that it was her decision and I needed to accept it.
I feel enraged, no one gives a **** about my feelings.
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Am I the only one I know, waging my wars behind my face and above my throat?
Diagnosed:
BPD
PTSD
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