Thank you for the support irishsj, sometimes a hug means so much more than words... Cajun, there are rarely words for these situations... like all here would know, I am just writing this to get it out... no words are needed. And you can never compare your own problems to someone elses, because your own problems will always remain the worst, and that´s how it should be... We all struggle in life... that´s life, as i have come to know... Freewill, I am so sorry that you too have to know this pain... I wish this upon no one....