What motivates me to keep going is i have this overwhelming impetus to get to a place in my life where i can live comfortable in my own skin. I literally don't feel like there's any alternative for me.
I hate the therapy "treadmill" too, the constant thinking about it, the struggles, the attachments etc and on the days i really don't want to go, it's the relationship that gets me thru. Because if i like my therapist enough i'll go just to see her on those days where i really want to avoid the work.