I'm overwhelmed with the chatter and emotions within myself. I never allowed myself to feel or dealt with my past. I'm forced to deal with it now and have no idea how to. all I feel like doing is crying and calling one of my dealers. I have no one to talk to and even if I did,I wouldn't even know how to describe how I'm feeling. how do I deal with this without taking drugs or keep trying to forget? I want to get better but it almost seems impossible. please help!!!