Soo.. A friend of mine pointed this out to me which made me think that maybe it's a problem.

Lately, and I mean like in the last week or so, I have been treating myself really badly. Mainly just calling myself stupid.

Which, in itself, doesn't seem like a big deal, but I mean.. It's out of the ordinary you know.

And the smallest things trigger it. Like I went to a NYE party and I almost forgot my keys and as I was going back to get those I just mumbled: "Stupid.. you are such a ****ing moron.. how stupid can you be" to myself.
That just doesn't seem too healthy.

The thing is - I don't know what triggered it. I haven't been under any particular stress - just the opposite. I'm in winter break so no school or work.. Ugh.

And it's like with swearing. I know that I'm doing it, but like.. the words come out before I can stop myself in a way. It just comes automatically in any given situation. I wouldn't have even noticed it myself probably if it hadn't been pointed out..

I don't really know what I'm asking for here. I guess I just don't really know who else to turn to with these kinds of things.