So a while back, I was filling out some forms with my T. One of the questions was "are you sexually preoccupied?". I jokingly asked her if I am. To my surprise, she said yes. She said that I seem sexually preoccupied but not towards anything specific so I guess that would mean I lack a specific sexual obsession. She said that it was kinda difficult to figure out what is going on with me as far as that goes because she said it's kinda "all over the place".

I've been trying to figure out what she could possibly mean by that. Part of me says I'm a 20 year old virgin (losing your virginity is by my definition something that is consensual so I would be a virgin) and all of this normal. But then part of me thinks that maybe something is off. I tend to find sexual innuendo in absolutely everything and make dumb sex jokes all the time. I guess I talk about it a lot too. I know I think about it a lot. I don't think I masturbate more than normal or more than what's healthy, but I do see porn basically all the time. Not because I'm actively looking for it but because porn is all over the sites I frequent. I just happen upon it. I only actively look for it like 4-6 times in a week.

I don't know. How would you define "sexual preoccupation" and does this seem normal? Is my T off base here or is there something I'm missing...? Part of me feels like part of this is just that people aren't accustomed to hearing a woman talk about sex openly and I'm just expressing what other women think but don't always say. Maybe it seems scattered and confused because I want to have sex but simultaneously don't want anyone to touch me and I'm scared of intimacy to the point of avoiding men altogether. But I talk about it nonstop. I don't know.