Meditation takes A LOT of practice, but it is starting to pay off for me - after a years of feeling like I was getting no where I can now meditate for longer periods of time. Im still not up to a full hour a day yet but I am getting there, slowly but surely.

There was a time in my life, after I had tried many many things with no success, that I just stopped trying. Well I got jack of that after a while, its horrible to be a slave to your moods. Now Im trying again all the things I tried years ago, and at this stage of my life they are making a huge difference. I dont know if maybe I wasnt ready earlier, now I am in a different phase, the meds are working, smoking weed etc but what ever it is, these alternative and extra things I am doing are improving my life dramatically.

When you give something a go its no use doing it once or twice, its very unlikely you will get any benefit at all. Try working these strategies into your daily routine. Not necessarily at this time you must do this thing, but more every day I will try to use this way of coping somewhere throughout the day.

Excusing yourself from trying by blaming symptoms will get you no where fast. Everyone has struggles, its how you deal with these struggles that will help you live your life. The only person you are hurting by not being proactive is yourself. It is brilliant you gave it a go, but try and try again until you get it. You didnt give up trying to learn to walk when you were a baby, or learning to write, learning takes time and effort. I think we forget that in adulthood.