Once the PSD retires, will it still be with me?

What qualifications do you need to meet?
I can get severely depressed, & this makes me not want to do anything, get out of bed, or basically anything. No motivation to do anything really.When I am severely depressed, this when I seriously consider suicide. Even when I am not severely depressed I am still suicidal. I have urges to self harm,will act on impulse- reason I include this is because if suicidal or SH urges, & at that I am impulsive... well, it might not turn out good.

Here a thread that includes stuff I experience.

Is there breed(or breeds), you recommended?