he was in between jobs at the time. now he works 8 hours per day making 30 dollars per hour. I realize that is still working class though. he comes from a working class family, but he has a very classy personality. he also writes me the most amazing poems, songs, etc. you would never guess he was working class unless he told you.(this is coming from me btw, a "rich jew").
anyways, all your posts gave me a lot of thought and consideration, so i abruptly broke up with him via text. it was so sudden and i feel really bad now. it was a dumb move. i'm such an idiot and i think i really hurt him. this is the super condensed version of our conversation...
me: i think we should be just friends. i'm sorry but i'm too young for a committed relationship, yet alone a long distance relationship. i'm sorry but i don't think it will work. i'm really sorry and i really like you but our relationship does not make sense. it's not fair to you. you don't have the financial security to spend enough time with me. i can't be with someone i could see only a limited amount. i really did like you though. and you do mean a lot to me. and i hope you find someone great because you deserve it.
i dont mean to be rude but it's just that we come from completely different worlds and i long for my kids to grow up the way i have. ill just end up feeling guilty my whole life if i'm with you. it's easier to be with someone who's similar to me and doesn't have to change his life around in order to be with me
him: ok i guess you made it clear i'm not good enough for you and you don't want to be with me. i don't understand the change of heart and why so sudden. where did this come from?
me: 1) i'm not going to see you often 2) you're stubborn about attending college 3) i don't want to be the breadwinner. i will most likely end up resenting you for these things in the future
him: i'm not stubborn about attending college, i just can't do it right now. and i told you i could see you every weekend if you wanted. but it doesn't matter, you've made up your mind. i knew i wasn't rich enough, successful enough or jewish enough for you but you said not to worry. i knew i wasn't good enough for you.
me: i don't want you to waste your money on me. it makes me feel guilty. i need a guy who i'm convenient for, so i don't have to feel guilty about you spending money on me.
him: that's a horrible reason. if you love me, it will work.
me: it's about money, distance, and age.
him: not everyones life is so fortunate. you don't know anything about the **** i've been through that's held me back in life. the sun can't and doesn't shine on everyone. find a guy who's from money, who's parents paid his way through college. that doesn't guarantee he'll love you like i do. ask yourself what's more important and your decision will be a lot clearer. it would be hard to find another guy who would write you songs or poems or make you bracelets or read to you while you fall asleep
me: i know. that's why i'm conflicted. i don't want to lose touch with you. you're a great person and i enjoy talking to you.
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