I was diagnosed with Aspergers at a young age and I feel like I have developed social anxiety. I am a senior in highschool and literally haven't had a single friend since the fourth grade due to social deficiencies that are entirely my own fault. The only person I can talk to IRL is my family and teachers with my brother being the only person I actually just plain socialize with and I only get on forums and such out of necessity, and even then with panic attacks and which sometimes result in me just deleting all messages before they can be read or running from the site altogether.

I just started watching a show about hikikomoris and I fully realize the threat of me going that road, though American society seems to do better with these situations.

I don't want to feel alone anymore and the future seems bleak can someone please give me any advice.