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Old Jan 03, 2014, 02:22 AM
Anonymous100110
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"I don't know" used to be my answer to everything in my sessions. My T didn't buy it. I came to realize for the most part he was right.

I discovered as he worked with me that I used "I don't know" mostly in avoidance. I was avoiding emotion--usually fear or potential embarrassment. I was avoiding looking at something that was hard to face. I was avoiding potential disapproval.

My T worked with me to observe what I was thinking (my fear or discomfort) about verbalizing the answers to questions, and I found (eventually) that recognizing why I was being avoidant took the power of that underlying fear away and I could actually answer those questions without total dread.

That doesn't mean that I always know the answers, but I've learned to phrase my "I don't knows" a bit differently. Now I might say, "I really don't understand what you are trying to tell me" or "I'm not sure I understand your question" or "I've never thought about that; I'm not sure how to answer". I've come to realize that if I can't make that kind of pointed response, I'm probably being avoidant. Then I try to slow my thinking down, take a deep breathe, gather my thoughts, and find the courage to verbalize what really is on my mind.

This is a very common problem in therapy, I think because we just feel so exposed. You might try having a talk about this with your T. It might lift some of the blocking you may be experiencing just by directly getting this out in the open.
Thanks for this!
Aloneandafraid, Hope-Full