I am seeing my diabetes technician on the 23/1/14. She will probably weigh me so I should be okay with that. Just knowing how my clothes feel on me will be enough. I think I will just do things my way. Today I danced like no-one was watching...... for five minutes. I am so uncoordinated.

I googled the diet pill Black Widow which ephedrine based. It can do damaged to the heart. So given I have put my own heart under so much stress I will leave it alone.

I wonder what my p'doc will have to say? He is kind to me. Always much kinder than I am to myself.