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AllyIsHopeful · Jan 03, 2014, 04:09 AM

You are definitely not alone! I still get like this at times, even though I have moved past that phase for the most part. It had to do with not completely trusting my T and having trust issues in general. I have also been shy my entire life. She really shouldn't ask questions that make you panic or struggle to find an answer to. Most people can't remember their "first time" for many life events and stages. It would probably be more helpful to ask "when was the last time you felt negatively about your appearance?" and so forth.
If you have an easier time writing out your feelings, perhaps it would help to do so? Maybe keep a journal or just type random feelings out on your computer or phone when you are feeling consumed by your thoughts. Bringing those in to your T will help her gain a better understanding of what the main focus should be and prevent from getting off topic or generalizing things.
Hope this helps, good luck.

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Originally Posted by nevergoodenough

A lot of the time in therapy when my therapist asks me a question I feel like my mind goes blank and I say I don't know. I have told her about this but still I know it's frustrating. Like I am miserably depressed, but at the same time I feel like I'm all shut down and apathetic and it's hard for me to make an emotional connection and answer her questions. I have been socially anxious and extremely shy since I was a child, so perhaps that adds to the confusion in conversations. I feel like if I had a blank document in front of me I could sit in front of the screen and type for hours because my thoughts are so loud but then when I have to bring them out loud I just can't think of how to word it or my mind just shuts down and I forget or... can't draw specific examples to my mind. Like for instance, my therapist will ask me, when's the first time you had a negative thought about your body...? And I'm just sitting there thinking in a jumbled up way that I've always had low self confidence but I couldn't really think of how to answer it so I just said I don't know. Because I can't remember the first time. I don't know, perhaps something wrong with my memory or I'm just apathetic. But does anyone relate? I hope this makes sense... it's such a hard feeling to express...