I keep having more and more dysphoria and confusion about who I am. I'm supposed to be "finding myself" right? But I look in the mirror and all I see is a stranger.

The best I can do is that I'm a musician. My favorite color is red. My favorite show is Spongebob. That sort of thing. But I don't know who I am…I don't know my gender (I know what "parts" I was born with of course), I know my birth name, but I'm not sure if that's my "real" name. I'm not sure if I have values, opinions, etc. and what they really are.

Does this make any sense to anyone? Since it doesn't make any sense to me...