I feel so horrible today, i sais hurtful words to my mother and just because of asking me repeatedly. i got so angry that i shouted to my baby, i smashed my phone and i just really want to shout at the top of my lungs. i dont know what is wrong with me, my brain tells me that this thing is too small to get rage with anger but i just can't control myself, sometimes i wanted to beat my own head for getting angry. I feel so bad cause part of me despise this emotion. i keep thinking to be calm but then when something makes me angry then i cant stop getting angry . I really need help for this