I have binged/purged continuously over the past 2 months, and on-off over the past 15 years whenever I get depressed (which is a lot), so I hear you. I know it's tough to get the thoughts out of your mind; these days when I get the thought of b/p, I try to mentally create a pros & cons list - and just focus on the harm that it is doing to the body, and how the instant gratification only leads to more guilt and shame later. Hope you are well today.